Letters...
J
I woke up around 11.30 sabi ko wala na baby ko d2 sa pinas probably nasa Japan na sila. I felt sad pero sabi ko he'll be back. 2 months, mabilis lang yun kaya ayaw ko masyado isipin. I cant even imagine na hindi na muna tayo magkikita kasi sobrang demanding ko pa naman sa time... ayan sinasabi ko na sayo kasi ganun talaga ako, eh ngaun pa na almost 2 months tayo hindi magkikita... papatayin ako nun sa lungkot.
It's just a phase and after a month and a half, d2 ka na ulit sa akin. i cant wait to see you again baby. i know, at times, ive been a head ache pero kasi ganun ako maglambing makulit. mejo demnding but am trying to control an so far i've been doing good.
alam mo, mejo nagugulat ako sa sarili ko kasi i dont normally write emails pero am doint this kasi gusto ko malaman mo how happy i am and thankful na ikaw ang naging ka partner ko. i could not ask for more and i will never fail you my baby.
I hope makapag reply ka d2 sa email ko kasi i wanna know ur thoughts and feelings now we're apart.
I'll start looking a part time job lang kasi gusto ko when u get back fly naman na tayo sa Dubai. pero while ur there, ako naman magpapaganda ng katawan para hindi mo na ako iiwan.
Baby, please take good care of ur self ah, wag ka m pababayaan sarili mo. always remember na there's this one Mike waiting for you to be back.
I LOVE U SO MUCH BABY KO!
M
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J
It's been 2 days already pero wala ka pa din paramdam. i hope ur doing ok in Japan. I just hope na within the day makatangap naman ako ng call from u na ok ka jan and na mimiss mo na ako.
I cried last night. para akong bata kasi humahagulgol ako sa iyak kasi nd ko na naririnig boses mo... hayz... mahirap talaga kapag ikaw ang iniwan. wala pa ako makausap regarding my feelings. like what ive told you, this is really difficult para sa akin kasi thru email lang kita makakausap and obviously, wala ka pa din reply. am not losing hope kasi i know you'll be back after 1 month. 1 month ha.
alam mo, am starting to look for a part time work para makapag ipon. i already emailed my friend in Dubai para matulungan nya tayo.
baby, i hope to hear from you soon. i just wanna know if you're ok. basta ayaw ko na muna mag isip ng kung anu-ano. mahal na mahal po kita. hinding hindi magbabago yun. kahit nasaan ka pa sa mundo, nag iisa lang ako na mag mamahal sayo ng sobra sobra... wala ka na makikita na kagaya ko kaya sana po balik ka na agad ah.
I LOVE U SO MUCH!
M
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J
Kahapon for the 1st time you called and it was unexpected. i was so happy to hear ur voice kasi miss na miss na po kita sobra.
Kanina before ako pumunta sa interview ko sa sykes, I found our ticket sa Maribago.. nlungkot nanaman ako kasi naalala kita.
Mahal na mahal po kita. Hindi ko kaya na mawala ka sa buhay ko, ngayon pa na ive planned my life kasama ka. I can't wait to see you again baby. ikaw lang ang iniisip ko palagi kaya wala ako bukambibig kay Tess atsaka sa mga kaibigan ko.. ikaw lang.
Basta, you'll be back and promise ko pag balik mo i'll be a better partner para nd mo ako iwan.
I LOVE U BABY... TAKE CARE!
M
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J
Today is our monthsarry and am so happy kasi we've reached our 3rd month already. Btw, i might start with my new employer by next week. i just spoke with the HR Manager and i will have to come over sa office within the week.
Sana makabalik ka na agad d2 sa pinas para nd na ako nalulungkot. Am just trying to be busy para nd ako palagi nagmumukmok d2 sa bahay. When you get back, i promise, nd na kita pakakawalan. magkamatayan na. hehehe.. mahal na mahal po kasi kita baby...
Basta ingat ka po lagi jan. Happy monthsarry kahit alam ko na nd mo naman ito mababasa.
I LOVE U SO MUCH!
M
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J
alam mo ba, i retracted my offer with RCG kasi may bond, eh hindi ba aalis na tayo early next year? so i decided to continue my application with IBM and Headstrong at least pwde ako umalis anytime without hassle.
Last night, i prayed to God na sana bigyan nya ako ng magandang outlook in this situation kasi I always think of you and everything I do is for the 2 of us. Bigla ko naisip na i can look for a better job tapos kahit contractual para makapag ipon ako for my plane and visa application. ikaw kasi wala ka na problema kasi u have the money already, pero sabi kasi ng friend ko na nasa dubai, i can already look for an employer who can pay for all of my needs pagpunta ko sa dubai. at least wala ko gagastusin, pero gusto ko pupunta tayo dun start from scratch para pagtutulungan natin. para may masasabi tayo na pinaghirapan natin pareho.
alam mo baby, at least 60k ok na daw tayo so 120k tayong dalawa.
alam mo, naiisnis talaga ako kasi palagi kita namimiss... sobra na kita miss.. u have no idea how much i love u. ngaun ko din narealize na hindi kita kaya mawala. sobra ang pagmamahal ko sau kahit 3 months pa lang tayo.. it feels like we've been together for years and ive known u since eternity. hanep talaga ako umibig lahat gagawin ko... sometime, i feel surprised abt myself kasi ganito na ako mag isip.. i always think of you and everything should be aligned with our plans.
kagabi din, i just realized na i only have one dream... and that is to be with you forever. no matter what it takes.. kakayanin ko... basta ikaw lang kasama ko. alam mo, naisip ko, when we get to dubai, what's next? am so excited to know what's next for us. i cant even imagine myself writing to you like this.. am so happy lang kasi someone's loving me and ganun din ako sa kanya... sobra po kitang mahal.
Thank you baby for loving me and i wanna spend the rest of my life with you. totoo po yun.. alam yun ni lord. kasi he knows what's inside my heart and so far, he's been so good to me.
Uwi ka na po baby... kasi miss na miss na po kita..
I LOVE U SO MUCH!
M
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J
I felt so sad today kasi i was trying to call you pero u didnt answer my calls tapos u didnt even call me today... hay... pero ok lang kasi i know ur busy and baka wala ka na load.
Well, may bukas pa naman and am sure tatawag ka kasi nd mo ako matitiis...
basta.. i miss you so much...
I LOVE U BABY!
M
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J
Kaw bad ka ah... wala ka paramdam. pero buti na lang i called you kagabi kasi nd talaga ako mapakali. kung sino sino nanaman ang pinag kakausap ko kung bakit ganun bakit ganito... pero my instinc is never wrong... wala ka lang load. sabi nga ni tess baka busy ka lang daw... pero tanong ko saan naman busy yun? hehehe...
in other words, sobrang busy lang talaga kita. i can never imagine myself na wala ka sa tabi ko... to be honest, this is killing me pero sabi ko babalik ka din naman...and pagbalik mo, promise ko sa sarili ko na hinding hindi na kita pakakawalan.
kung aalis ka, edi aalis din ako... sasama na ako sau. kung hindi, magkamatayan natayo... ganun kasi kita kamahal... baka sabihin mo nambobola nanaman ako...
for the past few nights, i've tried to control myself not to cry but the moment i see all the stuff that reminds you... ayun iiyaka na ako na parang bata. hayz... sabi ko nga miss mo din kaya ako? pero alam ko naman na palagi mo din ako napapanaginipan kaya alam ko na miss mo din ako.
baby, mahal na mahal po kita. i would never ever leave you alone. kahit ano pa ang mangyari... i've committed to only one person at ikaw you...JC Molina. kahit dumating tayo sa point na sawang sawa ka na sa akin.. i would undestand, pero nd pa din kita iiwan kasi that's wat we call committment. we're now a family kasi we're already planning for our future and that's what am looking forward in this relationship.
I love you baby... sana nababasa mo lahat ng email ko noh.
M
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J
i had a good time when i went to zambales last week, kasama ko din si nanay kasi it was meant for teachers pero pwde naman sila magsama. i met new friends na teachers din tapos may mga gurls na nagpaparamdam dun, pero nd nila alam taken na ako... si JC Molina kaya ang asawa ko.
We stayed there for 3 days tapos ang dami naming activities. sobrang saya tapos ang ganda pa ng surroundings kasi pulos bundok kaya nd mo maiisip yung pressure ng manila kasi sobrang peaceful ang lugar tapos sagana kami sa pagkain.
regading sa games, sobrang hihrap pero halos lahat sinalihan ko kasi ako yung pinaka malaki dun. may mga lalaki pero yung iba bading naman nd makapag buhat... hehehe...
sabi ko nga isasama kita dun baby next year. mag youth camp tayo... kasi yung iba kong naging kaibigan dun sasama din daw next year tapos sabi ko sasama ko asawa ko na pogi...
pero ang pinaka iintay ko dun yung tawag mo pa din... palagi nakakabit yung phone ko sa katawan ko kasi alam ko tatawag ka. tapos naiinis ako kasi nd kita marinig kapag ikaw na tatawag. pero masaya naman ako kasi nung ako tumawag nakausap na kita. alam mo baby, makausap lang kita kahit sandali ok na sa akin yun kasi nd mo alam kung gaano ka importante ang pagnarinig ko na ang boses mo para sa akin. you might find it so corny pero ganun ang nararamdaman ko para sau baby.
always remember that i love you so much.
M
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J
on our 5th month i hope you've finally come home. miss na miss na po kita sobra pero nilalabanan ko yung lungkot kasi kailangan nating magkalayo for the mean time. buti kapa you're enjoying your stay there in Japan samantalang ako sa bahay lang pero am so happy kasi i know behave ka naman jan.
Si tess umuwi sa province nila kaya wala ako masyado nakakasap d2. pero am doing good kasi madalas ako tulog. pero alam ko na kung anong oras ka tatawag kaya mga around 8pm manila time, nag aabang na ako ng tawag mo. minsan sa totoo lang, naiinis ako kapag wala kag tawag, pero ok lang kasi alam ko naman na mahal ang call card jan tapos minsan nd pa kayo magkaintindihan ng mga hapon jan... hehehe...
pero alam mo, kapag narinig ko na boses mo, sobrang saya ko na. kahit minsan ayaw mo sagutin tawag ko. pero sana baby sinasagot mo pa din kasi ibig sabihin lang nun mss na miss lang kita talaga.
minsan nga, sinsasama ako ni don punta daw kami malate kasi may black party.. sabi ko nd pwede kasi magagalit asawa ko. ayaw ko mawala asawa ko dahil lang lumabas ako isang gabi. alam mo sabi nya, ang swerte mo daw sa akin kasi hindi ka na daw makakahanap ng isang kagaya ko. sobrang matiisin tapos mahal na mahal ka.
i just hope na sana uwi ka na agad para we could start planning for our trip. alam mo baby, ive asked a lot of people already sa pag punta natin sa dubai, pero syempre ang alam nila ako lang muna pupunta nd nila alam kasma ko asawa ko. pero i dont care kung ano iisipin nila kasi alam mo baby, kapag kasma kita nd ko na iniisip mga sasabihin nila. nd ako natatakot kasi alam ko nd mo din ako pababayaan diba?
mejo nagiging emotianal ako baby kapag naiisip ko yung mga pwde mangyari sa ating 2. mapa negative or positive. pero am looking forward sa positive things kasi i prayed to the lord na maging maayos lahat ng bagay sa ating 2. i hope mag pray ka din gabi gabi kay lord para maging matibay relasyon nating 2.
mahal na mahal po kita baby. never po kita iiwan. sige na po baby... i need to prepare na kasi aalis na kami ni nanay punta kami sa cemetery.. mag aayos kami ng mga bulaklak.
Mahal na Mahal po kita
M
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J
If you really love someone, i believe that you should stand by him. not because you committed yourself to him or that he expects you to keep your word, but because you honestly believe that you do. Love really at first is always exciting. it makes you look forward to tomorrow and makes you joyful every moment. but it should also be secured and that it should always honest. THOUGH ACTIONS MAY SPEAK LOUDER THAN WORDS WE ALL STILL NEED THAT VERBAL REASSURANCE THAT IT’S THERE. AND EVEN IF IT HAS BEEN SPOKEN, WE’D NEED TO HEAR IT EVERY NOW AND THEN. Sometimes we fall and find ourselves in a position where it is not secured nor everlasting. But because we believe that what we feel is sincere and real enough, we would live love on what it has to offer for today hoping that things wouldn’t have changed for the inevitable tomorrow. to people like us to which it seems love is not meant to be, we stubbornly give love every chance we get hoping it would be our happy ever after.
- Dr. Yang of Grey's Anatomy
M
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J
alam mo i woke up this morning with tears in my eyes kasi i dreamed abt you.
here's the story, i went to japan daw kasi sobrang miss na kita talaga. tapos you gave me a notebook tapos ang sweet sweet mo dun pa lang naiiyak na ako kasi na feel ko na mahal na mahal mo din ako. then one day we went somewhere kaw pa nga nag drive para magpapalit ng pesos sa yen, tapos may kasama ka pa nga na isang guy na sumama sa atin na marunong mag hapon. tapos we went to a place na may nakakakilala sayo. may isang gurl dun na naghihimutok tapos nilapitan mo daw sya tapos kiniss mo sya.. ako naman... umalis ako bigla .. nag walk out tapos umiiyak na daw ako kasi niloko mo daw ako. i this she's ur gurl friend sa japan. i could still remember young scene na yun kasi gabi na yun tapos nd ko alam kung saan ako pupunta kasi am not familiar with japan. umiiyak talaga ako that night kasi i never thought na gagawin mo yun. but it was a dream lang baby. i woke up na malungkot. aaminin ko am quite worried na baka may ma meet ka jan one day tapos bigla ka ma fall sa kanya.
i want you to know baby na i love you so much. siguro palagi lang kita naiisip kaya ako nakakapanaginip ng mga ganun. basta wag mo po ako pag iisipan ng masama d2 kasi never po kita lolokohin. i promise to you na ikaw na lang mamahalin ko. i always pray to the lord na maging matatag ako para sa ating dalawa.
I love you baby.
M
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J
today is my first day at work and so far am doing all the getting to know process and some major adjustments. pero ok lang kasi mukhang mag eenjoy naman ko d2 kasi maganda naman yung culture ng company. I just hope na walang maangas d2 katulad sa HP.
Musta ka naman na jan baby? alam mo, nd ko namamalayan malapit na pala kita makita. kasi december na in 3 weeks time. bilis diba? sana excited ka na uuwi ka na d2 para magkita tayo ulit kasi alam mo miss na miss na kita sobra.
i am hoping to make a mark here at pointwest kasi maganda background ko from HP. I wanna a leader here para makita nila na am a good example. basta i will do my best para sa atin to baby. tandaan mo po na lahat ng ito ginagawa ko kasi alam ko makakatulong ito para maging maganda future natin.
I love you baby
M
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J
yesterday, i was browsing meebo chat logs and to my surprise, all conversations we've had in the past is being documented... hehehe kaya nabasa ko how naughty you are. ikaw ah... ikaw si mahilig sa sex... naku... tsk tsk... per buti na lang tumawag ka kagabi kasi sobrang miss na po kita. alam mo, prinint ko yung blog mo... kasi i wanna know more of you. i wanna know how passionate are you when it comes to loving someone. with that, mas mamahalin kita kasi nakita ko na ikaw yung tao kaya ako ipagtanggol at mapapanindigan ang pagmamahalanan natin.
after this, i will post everything i wrote from day 1 u left for japan so you'll be able to read. mahal na mahal po kita, am so sorry minsan kung makulit ajko sau kasi gusto lang naman kita palagi kausap o palagi kasama. alam mo, ako yung tao na nd marunong mag sawa. katulad ng sinabi mo na kahit araw araw mo pa sabihin kay jun na mahal mo sya hanggang wala ka na boses kaya ko din gawin kasi ganun ang feelings ko sau. i know this relationship will grow kasi nd natin pababayaan isat isa.
just hold on to our love baby. please always remember na and2 lang ako para sau.
Mahal na mahal po kita.. kahit araw-araw ko sabihin sayo how muc i love you till i lose my voice.. just to let you know how much i love you.
M
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J
Alam mo baby, i am so excited kasi i just have to wait for like 3 more weeks na lang and you're back. ive been thinking of you almost every single minute of the day, wishing you were here. pero all i can think of is your promise that you'll be back and am holding on to that. before, a week after u left manila, i was so down.. alam mo naman siguro yun kasi u felt it. i even mentioned to you na para akong bata at times na mag p-pray ako kay lord na sana makayanan natin lahat ng pagsubok sa ating relasyon. whenever i do that, i always cry.
ngaun, sobrang happy ako kasi malapit na mag pasko tapos am so excited kasi sa plans natin. i hope wag ka po mag sawa kasi never po ako mag sasawa na mahalin ka ng mahabang panahon... totoo po yun at kaya ko yun panindigan.
mahal na mahal po kita. always remember that.
M
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J
its 1.34am (manila time) and I couldn't sleep bec ive been thinkin of you. ive been thinkin if you have thought of this very special day of ours. ive been thinkin if you always think of me. ive been thinkin to call you kanina but my service got discon so it'll resume later this afternoon pa. i'm missing you so bad. so definitely i will call you and i wanna have a long conversation with you kasi i miss you a lot.
pero my mind is telling me that 3 weeks na lang and2 na si mokong tapos ma huhug ko na sya ulit. sobrang miss ko na yung hug nun eh pati yung paglalambing nya kasi sobrang sweet nun. i could still remember you watch me eat and give u that smile on ur face.. i could never forget that. i love u so much and i will never ever leave u. makikita mo.
what am afraid now, is baka sabihin mo na hindi ka muna makakabalik for some reasons. ay naku... pupunta talaga ako jan. kahit magbenta ako ng katawan para lang maka-punta jan gagawin ko. tapos kakaladkarin kita pabalik ng pinas... bad ko noh? pero wag naman po sana lord, kasi gagawin ko talaga yun. tapos you'll gonna hate me 4ever. ang sad naman nun. pero ok ang importante napadama ko sau kung gaano ka ka-importante sa akin.
alam mo, sa youtube, i saw a vid of sonia's garden... sobrang naalala nanaman kita. hayz... umuwi ka na kasi d2 baby... ayayaw na ayaw ko talaga ang long distance eh... kasi madali ako malungkot... tapos palagi pa kita naiisip.. walang panahon na hindi kita naiisip. ewan ko ba... ano ba pinakain mo sa akin mr molina.
basta, uwi ka na d2 1st week of december, i'll take ur word for it. mahal na mahal po kita.
M
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J
the last time you called i was so pissed off. sobra pero sabi ko ganun talaga and i have to understand. i love you so much kaya i cant help but to cry. i called tess right away, she's the only person i know i can talk to and entrust all my worries. sabi nga nya ok lang yun at least uuwi ka daw. pero i still have some doubts na baka nd ka talaga umuwi this december. baka nd ko na alam gagawin ko if that happens.
from the very beginning, ayaw ko talaga ng long-distance relationship. it never worked and will never work. sabi ko pwede ako makatiis ng 2 months pero more than 2 months, its gonna be a torture. please jc dont make this difficult for me. everyday, i always think of you wala sigurong sigundo na nd kita naiisip lalo na ngaun na walang kasiguruhan ang pag uwi mo. sometimes, i would stop from work and think kung uuwi ka pa ba talaga sa akin. i know your visa is for 3 months pero like you've said pwde ka ma extend. natatakot ako na baka mawala ka sa buhay ko jc. pero why should i worry, i have you and you'll never fail me diba?
while doing this email, my heart is in pain kasi wala ako pinag hahawakan kung kelan ka babalik. i just want is a confirmation kung kelan ka uuwi. madami ako naiisip ngaun baby sobra, my mind is crazy bec of you. ngaun na lang ako nagkaganito pero i think ngaun lang ako naging crazy sa isang tao. am not like this pero ganun siguro talaga kapag sobrang mahal mo. ayaw mo sya mawala kahit ano ang mangyari. tapos gagawin mo lahat para nd mag fail yung relationship.
baby, please promise me na babalik ka na 3rd week of december yun lang ang gusto ko marinig from you. i love you so much.
M
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J
i hope its official that you'll be back on xmas day. ive been waiting since the 6th pa kasi that was ur first commitment, but its ok. i totally understood the reason. however, u can never blame me for being so makulit kasi i miss you so much. you have no idea how crazy i am to see you again.
last night i called you, kasi nd kita matiis. to be honest, i want you to feel na special ka sa akin kahit malayo ka. i think am baing self less bec i am loving somebody so true. i even dreamt about you. alam mo ba kung ano yung dream ko ---- andito ka daw sa bahay namin sa paco tapos mahal na mahal ka din ng pamilya ko kasi alam nila ikaw ang nagpapasaya sa akin. i cried sa dream ko kasi sobrang happy ako. sobrang compelete na ako. sabi ko naman, ang dream ko ngaun, matupad ang mga pangarap mo sa buhay. tutulungan kita baby to achieve your dreams in life. i would like to be an instrument for you to achieve your dreams.
I wanna be with you forever baby. am just afraid na mawala ka sa akin kasi sobrang emotionally attached na ako sau baby. sobra. palagi na nga kita napapanaginipan eh. basta i cant get you off my mind as in everyday. and that's the truth. you can even open my head through an operation procedure para makita mo kung ano talaga ang nasa isip ko. ikaw lang JC Canja Molina wala ng iba.
When you get back, we will celebrate. i want you to know how fortunate i am kasi anjan ka sa puso ko. ikaw lang laman ng puso ko. and please wag mo sana sya sasaktan kasi ikaw lang din ang pwde makasakit sa kanya. isa lang po ang puso ko. yung nag iisang puso na yan pagmamay ari mo pa.
I love you baby.
M
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J
Do you have any idea how it feels everytime i run out of credit because i woudn't be able to call you?
Do you have any idea how it feels everytime i see a red car toyota echo type on the streets?
Do you have any idea how it feels everytime my phone rings and on the screen, it's just a private number?
Do you have any idea how it feels everytime i hear your voice even for just a minute?
Do you have any idea how it feels everytime i pass by philcoa?
Do you have any idea how it feels everytime i see a convergys signage on the streets?
Do you have any idea how it feels everytime a friend would ask how is my partner? did he come back already?
Do you have any idea how it feels everytime i get to hear "I could not ask for more" by Edwin Mckaine?
Do you have any idea how it feels everytime i see your pic sa friendster?
Do you have any idea how it feels everytime i see our ticket to Maribago Beach Resort?
Do you have any idea how it feels everytime i think of Sonia's Garden? its beauty and the love that brought us together?
These are the things that makes me nuts and crazy. It's simply because, i am missing you so much. there is only one word that makes me hold on. Love.
I could list down a thousand of things but i know you also have your own "do you have any ideas" but these are true and i'm experiencing it right now, even on the 1st day you left the country. but you know what, it feels so good to know that you're finally coming back. my only worries is that, am i still the one you really love? o baka naman you've found somebody else? i have been thinking na baka you're in constant communication with someone else also special. sana wala naman kasi ive been getting premonitions and am so scared. am sorry baby pero am just being honest. am so scared na baka mawala ka na sa akin. but my love for you will keep me standing.
you wouldn't believe, pero am crying while writing this letter to you. i think its just me. am so weak everytime i talk about my love. am so weak everytime i think about you. my heart is only for you and i know this heart of mine only belongs to you baby. hindi ako marunong mambola kasi i wouldn't be able to write all these letters if am making bola. truthfully, am so damn in love with you. and i couldn't ask for more.
Mahal na mahal po kita. you're the only one who could break my weak heart.
M
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J
thanks nga pala kasi it was our monthsarry and u waited for my missed call. ive been trying to call u kasi the whole day but of course u turned off ur phone. how is that? how would you want me to feel abt that? it was our monthsarry and wala ka man lang paramdam kahit isang minuto na sabihin na mahal mo pa rin ako o kaya naalala mo na monthsarry natin. kahit yun lang ok na pero wala insted u turned off ur phone. thats ok kasi kasama mo naman siguro si ate mo. pero sana wag mo ako papatayan ng phone kasi u have no idea how it feels kapag pinatayan ka ng phone ng pinaka mamahal mo sa buhay... it feels so bad. ngaun lang ako nag mahal ng ganito kaya ganito ako mag react. if am not like this, it only means i dont care. dahil ganito ako.. it only means na i care... i told you na i will be a better partner but i need you to be there para maipakita ko sau na am much better now.
am sorry but this me when i felt so neglected. and am sorry if am like this. pero promise ko sayo.. nd kita paiiyakin kahit kailan. kahit ako na lang ang umiyak, masaktan, kahit paulit ulit...wag lang ikaw. kasi nd ko kaya na makita na ikaw ang nasasaktan. ganyan kita kamahal jc.
M
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J
after our conversation last night, i realized na pareho pala tayo ng pinag dadaanan. akala ko kasi ako lang ang parang baliw araw araw, akala ko ako lang yung nag iintay sa tawag mo kahit alam ko na hidni ka naman talaga tatawag pero iniintay pa rin kita.. alam mo yun. i think am just a crazy partner. simula ng naging tayo naging crazy na ako.. crazy ako sayo sobra. ive never been this crazy before not even to my longest relationship, kaya kapag iniwan mo ako... naku baka matuluyan talaga ako and my life will be useless. kawawa naman ako, mother ko na mahal na mahal ako, mga kapatid ko na umaasa sa akin, sa mga kaibigan ko na nag mamahal sa akin.. lahat yan pwde maapektohan magkamali ka lang. life is a cycle and i believe that everything is connected in this world.. ano daw?
and the most important part is the xmas day. for me, for this year, xmas day is not the 25. its the 26th kasi thats the time na uuwi ka na. u have no idea how happy and excited ako na makikita kita ulit. naku, baka ako lang ang excited. but anyways, am looking forward na ma hug kita ulit and ma kiss kita ng matindi.
hindi mo ba napapansin how much in love ako sa isang bata jan? ilang emails pa ba ang susulatin ko just to prove my love to you baby? this only means na ikaw lang ang laman ng isip ko. you might think na sobra naman ako magmahal na tipong patay na patay ako sau, to be honest, konti pa ang pinapakita ko sau. sobrang hindi ko pa na eexpress lahat lahat and thats what am gonna do. i wanna be the best partner for you. i wanna prove to ypu that am worth your love, that am worth your time, and am worth your trust.
i love you so much baby.. kahit 5 months pa lang tayo and some might say na baka sa simula lang tayo or ako, but i know pretty much myself and when i fall in love, i fall so deep and malas mo kasi sayo ako na in love... ikaw kasi nag txt txt ka pa sa akin, but you know what, i thank u for doing that. kasi that very moment when i was in la salle txting with u, my life was changed. and you're the reason why am so happy and content with my life.
I love you so much. alam mo, madami pa ako gusto sabihin, pero kasi baka nd ko na masabi yun kapag nagkita tayo. 1 week na lang kasi. tapos alam ko naman na hindi mo naman agad agad ma babasa emails ko pero i kept on sending messages kasi i know you'll be able to read them all pagbalik mo. sana nga lang talaga basahin mo kasi hindi ako talaga mahilig gumawa ng love letter. sayo ko lang nagagwa ito.. ewan ko ba.
mahal na mahal po kita baby. ikaw lang po ang mamahalin ko ng ganito.
M
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finally, the time has come. i know this looks crazy kasi right at this very moment, you must be prapering yourself for your flight back to manila but am still writing a message as if matagal ka pa jan. may be sanay na kasi ako na gumagawa ng email para sayo. i had a dream last nigh. i dreamt of you. we were together daw tapos magka holding hands in public tapos we were kissing and you were so sweet. nd ko makalimutan yung dream na yon kasi that was my dream in real life-makasama ka habang buhay. you know what, ive been waiting for this very day to come. ive been thinking of you every single day. i always pray na sana you come home safe and still in love with me. like what ive told you, i'll try my very best to be the best partner you'll ever have and you will only have.
i'll see you later and i love you so much.
M
