"Sometimes when you hold out for everything, you walk away with
nothing."
---Ally McBeal

im sorry

sorry
 
Dear J.

I'm sorry I haven't talked to you in so long. I feel I've been lost. No bearings, no compass. I kept crashing into things, a little crazy I guess. I've never been lost before. You were my true north. I could always steer for home when you were my home. Forgive me for being so angry when you left. I still think some mistake's been made and I'm waiting for God to take it back. But I'm doing better now. My work helps me.

You came into my dream last night with that smile of yours that always held me like a lover, rocked me like a child. All I remember from the dream is a feeling of peace. I woke up with that feeling and tried to keep it alive as long as I could.

I'm writing to tell you that I'm on a journey toward that peace. And to tell you I'm sorry about so many things. I'm sorry I didn't take better care of you. I'm sorry I didn't try harder to find the words to tell you what I was feeling. I'm sorry I ever fought with you. I'm sorry I didn't apologize more. I was too proud. I'm sorry I didn't hold on to you with so much strength that even God couldn't pull you away.

All My Love.
J.

hopeless romantic

hopeless romantic
 
Yes, I am a hopeless romantic,
dreaming of love and passion that will come my
way,
I will continue to dream and hope,
until my true love comes to stay.

I see your smile and lovely eyes,
and all I can do is sigh.
Will you be the one I've dreamed of,
my soulmate, my love?

I only know that when I look at you
my heart soars and I smile,
I will take a chance on you.
And see our dreams come true.